Tuesday, January 26, 2010

grief unbearable

We got on a plane on Friday to look for a new home in Michigan. So much to look forward to.

We had no idea what would be transpiring back home in England. Pain beyond my words.

Our dog, Fletcher, had been sick and we didn't know it because he showed little to no signs. The morning after we left, our friends, who love and care for him when we travel, decided to take him to the vet because he was limping and sick. They did the right thing. The cared for him exactly the way we would.

It looked like he had an infection of some sort that antibiotics and pain killers could fix. Things only worsened the next day. His breathing was labored, he couldn't lift his head. All this was happening while we were sorting our lives out for our big move in March.

Our friends called us with dread in their voices. They texted us, too, to keep us aware. We called the vet and got all of the details. They recommended that we put him to sleep because he was suffering.

There are no words.

Please pray for our family. We had to tell the children after we returned from house hunting only to hear 5 piercing cries of disbelief and agony.

There are no words.

We are clinging on to Psalm 62:8 ~
Trust in him at all times, O people;
pour out your hearts to him,
for God is our refuge.

I'll share more as I am able.


LisaShaw said...

I'm so so sorry dear friend. As a dog lover and one who has sadly gone through the loss of dogs over the years I can so understand that your heart is grieving for Fletcher. I pray for GOD's peace and comfort for your family.

Love you.

Joyce said...

Oh I'm so sorry Carol. I know you must be feeling so much right now and I am praying hard my friend. Take care...Joyce

petrii said...

Oh Carol, I'm so sorry!!! I remember losing our dog when I was a teen, it was so hard.

Love you friend,

Kristi @ Pink and Polka Dot said...

oh...i'm so sorry! you and your family are in my thoughts.

chili pepper said...


So unable to adequately say how sorry I am for you. Even I am almost in tears... silly that Fletcher has become our blog doggy friend... praying for your comfort and that of all your family and for the dear friends who had to do such a difficult task on your behalf.

Love to you!


The Lehman's said...

Carol, Shawn and Busse crew--We are so sorry to hear of your loss. You are in out thoughts and prayers.
Lots of love--the Lehman's

Jules said...

I know how that feels. So sorry. We went through that 3 times in the last few years. So tough on kids....

Denise said...

Oh Carol, my heart is breaking for you, I can't even imagine having to deal with something like that. I will be praying for you and your family my friend. May the sweet and precious memories of Fletcher help ease the pain in your heart.

Darcie said...


I am crying tears for you and your family right now. I am so, so, so sorry honey! The lost of a pet is so hard, and I know just how close you all were to Fletcher. Wrapping you all in a tight hug (((((((hug)))))))))).

Tina said...

Oh Carol I am so sorry! I can't imagine how sad you feel not being able to be with Flether as he was suffering. Praying the Lord will comfort all of you!

fullertribe said...

I'm so sorry. This is a terrible thing to have to deal with on top of everything else that you are doing. Praying for you and the kids.


Kim... and Her Coffee said...

Oh Carol. I'm so very sorry. Losing our Graham in April was one of the hardest moments in my life. But, I cannot imagine that happening while you are away ~ and in the process of preparing a move back to the States. Carol, I pray for your family to find peace and comfort from God our Father. And, again, I'm so very sorry.

steffenboysmom said...

All I can say is that I love ya girl and I know how much you will miss Fletcher.

Rachel said...

I'm SOOO sorry!!! I will be praying for all of you as you deal with this loss. At least the kids didn't have to see him suffer - surely it was better this way...I hope.

McCrakensx4 said...

Oh Carol...I am so sorry. What a terrible loss...I cannot fathom. We lost a family dog after 15 years and it was one of the hardest things that I have ever had to deal with. May God be with you during your time of loss and grief.

Pam said...

I am so sorry, I just came over and read... praying for you all.